Having nothing to say comes as a blessing now. For some time, I kept repeating the same themes in my thinking. I must experience the world rather than analyze it in my mind because overanalyzing starts creating problems.
I am grateful for all the experiences that shaped the person I am today, but I am used to questioning everything. This is how I make sense of the world. When I can’t stop questioning, then is when the problems start, following a subject so deep that I can’t get out of it for a long time.
I believe that questioning the world, and all our experiences is an ability to be treasured, but we need to find a way to stop the questions if they do more bad than good.
Today I am a little older than yesterday, and with this new day, I start on a path that is only mine. I know what I want to find along the way, but what I’ll really find is a surprise. Though I don’t like surprises, I know is for the best. It keeps my curiosity alive.
I am calm today. All things that used to put pressure on my mind seem to have lost power. This newly gained clarity helps me see life in different colors. It’s no longer something forced on me, but rather something I chose to embrace. Now, it feels like a game I can never lose because I play by my own rules.
Life experience is always important, and if you are willing to see, it will show what is important to you. When all that is important to you is independent from external validation, you are the only one that can turn the life you have into the life you want.
Though I am close to the middle of it, it feels like my life is just beginning. I am excited for every moment that is gifted to me. I wake up eager to take a new breath, to write a new word, to feel another embrace. I am eager to feel love.
In this moment, I choose to not feel the weight of the future, neither of the past. I choose to be in this moment of peace for as long as I am allowed, and if I step out of it, I hope to keep it forever in my mind.
There is no certainty in what I do and what I think. There are no guaranteed results, but trusting myself provides a solid base for future development. At the end of the day, that is all I need.
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