A new start, another one. It’s not the starting that I’m having trouble with, but with the following through, and finishing. All of the plans I made for the future are starting to expire because they were not turned into reality, and this feels like my progress doesn’t exist.
This assessment is not completely correct because I am no longer the person that made those plans, I am somebody who’s ready to make new ones. Evolution is part of life, and it happens even when you are not aware. What you evolve into is not always meeting your expectations, especially when you don’t take conscious action to guide you in the right direction.
Who you will be has nothing to do with what you say you’ll do, but it has everything to do with what you consistently do each day. We all are the result of our actions, but most of the time we are influenced by the small actions we pay no attention to.
The more you do something, the more it becomes part of you. Before you know it, you are doing it without thinking. Do this with enough small things that work against you, and soon you will be sabotaging your actions without being aware.
To avoid fighting yourself at each step, start paying attention to the decisions you make and the choices they lead to. This will give you the opportunity to correct the course before it’s too late.
I give up. I give up believing I know better. I give up control. All my life I tried to predict what will come next so I can better prepare for what’s coming. It worked at times, but I was more successful when I let intuition lead me.
Now, I must trust my intuition again because there’s nothing left for me to lean on. I have everything I need to get unstuck, but with every move that I make, I become more stuck. Just like in quicksands, I need to calm myself long enough to have clarity in my mind to decide on my next action.
Doing nothing will only postpone the inevitable, so I must take action, but I am out of ideas. This is why I decided to trust that whatever comes my way is meant to help me, and I am strong enough to overcome any hardship.
In life, I have fought against what stood in my way many times. By now I understand that a better way exists. Like in martial arts, we are supposed to use the energy of what comes into our lives to take us in the direction we want to go. We must ride the wave, rather than let ourselves be buried by it.
This kind of approach might be hard to get used to in the beginning. It means more work sometimes, but in time it will prove more efficient than constantly fighting against what you don’t want in life. To quote a classic, “Be water, my friend!”(Bruce Lee).
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