Out of here

My mind is slow this morning, and my thoughts are easy to observe because, in trying to move through the thick mist filling my head, they stay in focus for longer. I find it useful to be able to look at my thoughts for long enough to make sense of them and understand where they are coming from.

My lethargy keeps me from judging what is going on in my mind. The only purpose of my observation is to understand myself better. Knowing what you think, and why you think that way, will prove yourself in whatever situation you will find yourself in life because it allows for better decisions.

When something unpredictable happens, being aware of who you are, what are your limits, and how you might react if they are tested, can help you navigate the unknown. All that is left for you to live is unknown. The more you uncover who you really are, the easier it becomes to move through what every new day brings.

Have conversations with yourself as often as possible. Ask yourself difficult questions, and don’t be afraid to accept the answers. This is a sure way to learn more about who you are. Even if you will keep some parts hidden from the world, no part should be hidden from yourself.

There will be ugly parts, that are hard to accept, but they must be seen and accepted, or they might grow big enough to swallow you.

I have no idea what to do, but for the first time since I can remember, this does not scare me. It took a lot of time for me to understand that I will never know what to do in advance because most things I do in life are new to me.

This is not to say that I can’t be prepared and get good at them, but my performance, in any situation, is related more to how I respond to events. I admit that having enough information in advance can make things easier, and the amount of work necessary will also be reduced.

When this is not possible, all that’s left is to make the best of the pieces I have, until new parts become available. Little by little, the pig image becomes clear enough for me to know what needs to be done. It’s difficult to have patience when the pieces of information that you have make no sense to you.

No matter how much you move them around, the image created is still not enough to move on. Now it’s when you’ll have to move on faith. Your next step might not be right, but you need to make it, because staying here is no longer an option.

There’s no certainty on where you’ll end up, but for now, it’s not that important. You know that where you are is not good for you. So, first, get out of here, and then, once the stress and fear have subsided, find a process that works for you, and get clear on where you want to go.

When you don’t know what to do, trust yourself and do what you know is right. It will make the next step visible.