Out of focus, that is how I feel lately. It’s like I’m a stranger to myself and to everything happening in my life. I feel like my own spectator and I know nothing about the play.
I don’t know why this happens and I don’t know what to do about it. In times like these, when changes are all around I should be in the middle of things, doing the best out of it.
I’ll try to do the same with what I feel. I’ll use this distance between me and what is happening to better analyze everything. This is possible because being out of focus allows me to see more. It allows me to know what I should keep my attention on.
I don’t know if it will work or if it even makes sense, but it’s the only way I see where I can have control over what is going on around me.
You might say I’m using me being lost to find a better way to take me further than where I’ve started. I have no guarantee my way of thinking is right or that is gonna do any good, but it’s what I have.
I’ve been able to get to this point in my life with this kind of thinking. I try to make the best with what I have, and even when I get to a different place than the one I started for, it’s still something I can use. Sometimes, where I end up proves to be better than where I wanted to get in the first place.
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