Result of my choices

I am pursuing a new dream in my life. I don’t know if it will become real any time soon, but I need to stay with it.

It took me almost 30 years to understand I must focus on a small number of directions to go after. As a young boy, my mind was unable to focus. By now I have learned that the only way to make progress on anything is to focus on what matters and give as little energy as possible to everything else.

Focusing on the few important aspects of my life helps me move forward each day, even if not as fast as I’d like. I don’t remember a day when this was easy and the amount of discipline necessary to keep at this can’t be measured, but every milestone I manage to clear makes it worth it.

I don’t know how many of my endeavors will end, and that is fine. I trust the path I am on to take me where I need to be even when I don’t like where I end up.

I feel the weight of all my wrong choices, but I need to understand that they were necessary at the time I made them. Where I am now in life is fine, but is not where I thought I’d be by this time. When I dwell too much on my unmatched expectations, I start to lose sight of the things that turned up better than I expected.

This present that I’m experiencing is the result of all my choices, and if I like parts of it, I must like it as a whole. I can’t have the good without the bad, they are always connected. Accepting that everything I saw as an obstacle turned into a benefit further along the way is hard to do.

All of us need to understand that, at least, some of our actions will be met with resistance. This is meant to build up our mental muscles for bigger challenges in the future.

Easy paths are what many people are wishing, but they fail to see there’s no evolution on those paths. Evolution happens only when you are forced to go outside of what you know, of what you consider comfortable.

Each of us moves at a different pace, but all of us will be forced to face difficulties, and the way we act when that happens, dictates the kind of person we become. Every moment that scares you is also an opportunity to grow. The choice is yours to make, so pay attention.