Where am I going is unclear. I might not be moving at all. Surprisingly, I am extremely calm about the situation. All of my worries have subsided, and for the first time this year, all that I feel is peace.
Now I can experience life for what it is, and not for what my fears and worries make it up to be. I feel like I am standing still and everything else is moving around. This allows me to pay attention to all there is.
The future is not important, the past is not a burden anymore, and the present just is. At this moment, I am surrounded by the certainty that everything will be fine, even if I have no clue how it might happen.
For a long time, I have considered that I need to be fulfilled is to reach some self imposed milestones. This view is flawed. All that I need is to find the activities and actions that will keep me in a state of constant anticipation for what I know with certainty is mine.
Each of us, we owe it to ourselves to find what speaks to us and do that. Trust that it is the single thing that can improve your life dramatically. It only asks from you to give up all the masks you made up, thinking they will help you fit in, and show the world who you are.
My life is not only about me, that is why I need to trust that whatever is coming is right for me. I am sure that some of the things in my future might feel completely wrong at first, but that only means I need to change my perspective. Having faith in what I don’t see, is essential when I have nothing else to go on.
Lately, a little idea is gaining momentum in my mind. The idea that what I am meant to do on this Earth is coming for me, and it’s going to find me soon. I don’t know what it will be, I don’t know if I’m ready, and I’m afraid I might miss it. Even so, I will continue learning, and doing what I know, for me to be ready when an opportunity arises.
All my life I have been learning and preparing. In the beginning, I had no idea why. By now, I hope that it was to prepare me for the important moments in life. Such a moment is closing in, I can feel it in every cell of my body.
I will do my best, whatever comes, and I will meet my destiny standing with my head held high, as every person should.
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